bdsmplayground:

Some basic knots for beginners :) 

Cheers Kiki

thedarkmindedone:

This is most definitely me — I love all things dark… 

speciousatbest:

fuck

i can’t seem to remember that taking these pills is a necessity
to avoid that fog
to help understand
because i’m feeling confused much of the time
and suffering some sort of crisis of conscience
I guess

it would be easy to blame it on that
but it has to be something more
it has to mean that maybe i’m just not happy

it is so goddamned exhausting
to always ignore the voices
(supposedly there to help)
and find yourself doing the same thing
the thing you hate
day after day

so many people pat you on the back and
compliment your intellect
and things have to always make sense
and this…
this doesn’t

you can’t ever speak from the heart
it will kill them to hear it
to simply say that mostly
you just don’t care
not out of laziness
or malice
or spite
it is as simple and objectionable
as an inborn apathy and indifference

so you wonder why despite such claims you are
always sad
crying
in self medicated distress
why?
if it’s really that you don’t care
why?

and then you realize that everything you do
is by design
to shut off the fact that
it all means too much to you
so much so, it is debilitating
it barely qualifies as a life

when one spends so many waking hours trying to tamp down
every tiny bit of true feeling that
develops from the chemical centers of the mind
because it’s just too much

so where are we at?

we hold them all at arms length
we cut them down and say she doesn’t matter
we seek out things that make us feel…
good
i guess there is just some confusion as to
how this happiness actually makes me feel

i’ll go with good in the short term

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This made me cry

speciousatbest:

it was 740 days since i had loved
until i answered the door
and upon seeing your face
hearing your words
i slunk off into a corner
deftly pouring whiskey
into a can
to hide from you
myself
the law

and a walk sounded like
a good idea
at that hour
and as my mind numbed
and became heavy
sitting…

sillysubmissive:

I’ve had several (women of course) let me know how truly UNsubmissive I am. I do realize that this is all looked at as community full of brothers and sisters. My feelings are that Ds and ss are a supra species of humanity. Existing on an entirely different level than others that aren’t passionate…

onenationundersalami:

Made this to play with friends a week ago. But I have no friends. So anyone want this?